Today we tell the story of Pete Joseph, his history with benzos and his journey towards healing and recovery. This is told in Pete’s own words. If you wish to share your own Benzo Story we would be honored to tell it.
How It Began
“My story started 26 years ago when I was prescribed Xanax for anxiety at .25mg three times a day. I took it as prescribed, and I had relief. I also had PTSD from being a First Responder Paramedic and s Supervisor.
I had increasing anxiety over the last 1O years and during that time my dose was increased and my use became more frequent. I carried my pill bottle with me which kept me functional to a point; and then I started avoiding certain high traffic areas which included stores farther away for instance.
Forced to CT in 2017
I was forced CT by my doctor my last pill was Thanksgiving in 2017, so my start date is very clear in my mind and always will be.
I was fortunate to understand that going to a mental health facility that I would give up my rights completely, and so I went home instead of that route and I also had to care for my Mom who is complete care, and unable to walk. I have cared for her my entire CT, and she has been the driving force behind my healing.
Online Support Was Invaluable
My girlfriend introduced me to groups which I believe saved my life. I finally began to piece together what had happened to me, and had left me with no memory.
I have been through wild fires that forced me to evacuate, mudslides following the fires, and an earthquake that lifted me from my couch. The pain and confusion involved had been unreal. I didn't recognize my home, or belongings.
I have followed a routine to keep myself together through all of this. I walk throughout my home every day, and just make sure my Mom is safe, eats, and had insulin.
Current Day Improvements
I am currently at 17 months off with no meds, no doctor visits, and no ER. My head is clearing every day, and my symptoms, which numbered around 100, are slowly decreasing, and my walking is improving.
I still have depersonalization, derealization, akathisia, peripheral neuropathy, head pressure, tinnitus among other symptoms.
I have a long way to go, and many people to thank for still being here, and I tell them every day.
All of the other people I am in contact with are my heroes and they save me every day.
God bless you all, and keep fighting.
This is slow healing, but it is happening for you too.
Final words from Benzo Warrior
Thank you so much to Pete for sharing your story with us. We hope this helps others feel less alone with the experiences they are having as they take charge of their health and withdraw from these medications.
We are here to support you as much as we can in the Benzo Warrior Community as you continue your taper and head towards healing and recovery.
It is worth noting that anyone taking these medications is at risk of dependence, tolerance and addiction, even when taken exactly ‘as prescribed’.